I am so in need of a mental health day. I mean really.
Even though my blog is a secret from my family, I still recognize that there will likely come a time when my family learns of this. So anything that I think could be used against me in the future, I unfortunately have to edit out.
That said, yesterday was a hard day. Though I enjoyed seeing my mom and she seemed genuinely happy to see D and myself. It also makes me wishful that next year I am pregnant on Mother's Day.
As some of you may remember, I have been having trouble with my heel lately. I've also had a lot of trouble actually getting an appointment with my [new] doctor. So I was thrilled when there was a cancellation
He was horrible. I mean it. Horrible. Made me feel worthless. Actually made me cry ... but not in front of him. Even though my heel symptoms do NOT match up with his diagnosis, that was what he stuck with. He has attributed everything to me not being thin.
And believe you me, he was shocked when all my tests came back "good." EKG--good. Pulse--good. Breath sounds -- good. Blood pressure? Tiny bit high ... not surprising since this @** of a doctor started telling me over and over and over again that I should really consider gastric bypass surgery (my sister and father had it). Even after I told him I didn't want it. Also not surprising that my pulse was a little fast ... I was trying to not cry ... or scream/kill him.
I had blood drawn and I am 99.9% convinced that it will all come back normal--and he will be shocked.
He also talked down to me and dictated he wanted me back in 6 months to weigh me and take my BP again. Again, my BP wasn't actually high. And there is no way in hell I am going back for this man to make me feel like crap again.
He's calling on Wed with the blood test results ... that message will be going to voicemail. I need a referral for an ENT. Once I get that, I'm switching doctors.
I get that your doctor should be concerned with making sure you are healthy. But shouldn't he also make sure he isn't f*cking with your psyche too?
I am beyond hurt. And humiliated. And perhaps it is just adding to it to put it on this blog (so please be kind with comments!). But there it is.
Seriously needing a pick-me-up.
Update: Blood work came back. Nurse left a voicemail saying everything was great then started reading my results. Sucrose (i.e. diabetes) ideal. Potassium, ideal. Sodium, perfect. Cholesterol a little high (her words). She left the numbers and I did some further research. The LDL is the number to be most concerned about and mine is "within ideal range." Works for me. In my opinion, I've been vindicated!